To Whom It May Concern

Some days you’re working on the great American novel, and others you’re writing an unhinged cover letter. Just a reminder that creative writing takes on many forms, especially when your job hunt turns you absolutely feral…

Dear Kind Punks of Meow Wolf –

You’re Meow Wolf – one of the most innovative, fever-dreamy experiences a person can pay for while also remaining sober. Let’s be real: do you really want to hire someone who sends a boring, corporate-approved cover letter outlining their “transferable skills” (gag) that ChatGPT most likely pumped out? No. You want someone willing to take the risk of sending a slightly unhinged cover letter to prove not only that they have the skills to do the job, but that they’re daring enough to push boundaries in the hopes of exploring the limitless potential of this creative enterprise. Because Meow Wolf didn’t become what it is without taking risks and believing in the impossible before they made it happen.

And maybe you’re saying to yourself, “Yes, yes, but to create all this, we need a Show Manager who can be focused and business-minded. We can’t sacrifice great skills for spectacle.” To which I say, “Put me in, coach!” I don’t see structure and creativity as opposing forces – I see structure as the thing that allows creativity to scale, survive, and actually come to fruition.

My biggest fear in life is that my tombstone will read, “She was organized.” For better or worse, it’s one of the top characteristics attributed to me. From my experience as a community theatre stage manager to a Marketing and Communications Project Coordinator for a 100-year-old global humanitarian nonprofit, I’m deeply acquainted with what it takes to navigate the needs of a wildly diverse cast of characters and how to stay calm, decisive, and solutions-oriented when everything appears to be on fire. So yes, while it would be accurate, it’s a horrifying epitaph.

“She was adventurous.”
“She was curious.”
“She got it done.”

These are also completely accurate and far more alluring. These qualities, paired with hard-earned technical skills and a genuine love for complex, collaborative work, are what I’d bring to Meow Wolf’s table. I thrive at the intersection of logistics and imagination, where timelines, people, and big ideas collide. I would give my all to rally behind this team and steward a vision as wild, colorful, and ambitious as Meow Wolf’s.

With considerable risk comes significant reward. Maybe I’m not the most obvious candidate for the Show Manager role – but do you really want the safest bet, the one that promises competence and delivers mediocrity? Or do you take a chance on someone who doesn’t quite fit the mold? Meow Wolf never has. Fortune favors the bold – and I’d love the opportunity to prove that, in the day-to-day work that makes big magic possible.

All the best,
– J

Resolute

Happy New Year! I can feel your slack-jawed eye roll from here. No, I have not been living under a rock for the past two months. Although that does sound nice. I am acutely aware we are eight weeks into DumpsterFire: 2026. So, let me explain. With the new year comes new hope. Resolutions are quietly made. The thought, “this year will be different,” may not be verbalized, but it is internalized. We keep our prayers silent, so when the familiar lack of follow-through presents itself, it’s not quite such a public disappointment. But here’s the thing – expecting to implement effective and sustainable life changes on January 1st is as logical as moving seats instead of washing the cups. It is almost guaranteed to be a setup for failure. New Year’s Day is still very much a part of the holiday season, and no one should ever attempt to recalibrate their life with a hangover – whether it be from booze, cheese, or the Christmas cookies that seemingly regenerate in the tupperware. Even after the fog of overindulgence has lifted, the post-holiday blues hit hard. I maintain that winter shouldn’t even exist without the glow of twinkle lights and the expectation of presents, but at this juncture, the only escape from the frozen hell of a Northeast January is a solid one-two punch of plane ticket and passport. This is an environment to survive, not to thrive.

For the most part, the same can be said of February. On the heels of Christmas recovery comes the need to dip dodge the expectations of Valentine’s Day. Whether single or romantically linked, very few of us actually get through the Hallmark holiday without some level of emotional scarring. February also holds a personal landmine for me. It’s my birthday. Ah, many of you may not know that, and that is by design. You’re probably saying to yourself, “Your birthday is the perfect time to celebrate the new year. It is truly YOUR NEW YEAR, the first day of your next trip around the sun!” And you would be right if you were talking about someone who found any joy in their birthday. I am not one of those people. My birthday serves solely as a reminder of all the things I haven’t done, and I now have one less year to do them. You would think mortality would be a compelling motivation to get my life together. I would think that, too. But alas, my yearly gift from me, to me, is that I allow myself to ride out the doldrums without any intention of goals or growth. I know more fertile ground is coming.

Because March, gloriously gloomy, completely inconsequential March, is primed for resolution. Apologies to all you March babies out there, but apart from your oh-so-special day (which I truly hope you enjoy!), this third month offers very little in the way of obligation or excitement. Particularly since I aged out of partying like everyone is Irish on Saint Patrick’s Day. The only other day of note is Daylight Saving Time, which just means I have an extra hour to feel moderately energetic. March is when I can finally stop white-knuckling it through forced holiday cheer, existential crisis, and seasonal depression. And that is why my “new year, new me,” starts on March 1st. Which is when I started writing this.

I’m not great (ok, I suck) at self-motivation and creating for creation’s sake, which is probably why I’m a self-proclaimed writer with a very thin portfolio. But damn, do I love a project! So, I’m going to do my best to let go of the notion that I always have to be my best. This recovering perfectionist is going to post something every Wednesday (Writing Wednesday – I’m a fool for alliteration), whether I happen to think it’s brilliant or not. I’m just making pots [what on earth does she mean “making pots?!” FIND OUT HERE] in my little safe space of the Internet. If there is such a thing. Hell, I should be so lucky if anything I ever write goes beyond my mom and three friends and actually reaches the trolls.

So come along with me for the ride, or don’t. In the nicest way possible, I don’t care. I’m writing for me, and putting it out into the world is my own little way of keeping myself accountable. I can guarantee that there will be no method to my madness, and in the off chance that some themes start to emerge, it is only due to dumb luck and may be a good indication of what I should explore with a licensed professional. Some weeks, I’ll talk about what is going on with me (a riveting subject to be sure). Maybe others, I’ll talk about what’s going on in the world – seems like there are a few things worth exploring there. And still other times will be more relatively trivial material – a review of the latest theatre or movie I’ve watched, a travelogue of the trip I haven’t planned yet. And, when all else fails, I have no less than a half dozen writing prompt books that have sat on my shelf, mocking me, while they collect dust. I also take requests if there’s a particular subject on which you’d like my hot take. Whatever the entry, I promise it won’t be any longer than the life story you have to read before getting to the six-step recipe you found. Now onward! With the muses and my waning attention span to guide me, I’ll see where the journey leads. One word at a time.

Hi, Pain – 11.15.2023

Hi, Pain –

This isn’t what I expected. This isn’t what I planned for. You’re here so much more than I imagined because you filled in the spaces that others left vacant. I never thought my life would look like this. And I’m tired of people telling me to create a new picture of happiness. I painted that image once before. I don’t have the energy to start over and I already used up all my favorite colors. For once, can someone else make art out of this mess?

Hi, Pain – 8.6.2023

Hi, Pain –

You became too much to bear and so I ran away. I’ve become a grief refugee. I know I can’t escape you completely but I came to stay in a place where contentment exists. Where the energy of honest people and joyful chaos fill in the gaps of the day so that it bursts with life. They’re not mine but I can borrow them for a little while. It is a second-hand happiness. It is a life raft as I navigate through a stagnant ocean of despair. You’ll still be there, just on the other side of familiar shores , but maybe hope will be there, too. I guess we’ll see.

grateful for and inspired by jonny sun’s goodbye, again

Hi, Pain – 6.11.2023

Hi, Pain –

I had to say a different kind of goodbye recently. One I anticipated and yet it still arrived so suddenly and without enough warning. The creaking of the empty pew and your shadowy presence were all that accompanied my mournful tears that day. No words of affection. No comforting arm around my shaking shoulders. Only Sadness sat beside me with Anger close behind. An elemental part of my past self is forever buried with her now and I can’t help but smolder and assign blame because anyone who meets a future me will never know it. Not truly. Not firsthand. Grainy photographs and well-worn memories are not sufficient substitutes for taking a seat at the table that so lovingly crafted who I became. If you don’t know me currently, you’ll never know me completely.

Hi, Pain – 3.23.2023

Hi, Pain –

It’s been a long day. I’m tired, I’m worn out, I’m hungry. I wish it could be someone else’s responsibility to procure and prepare some food. But no one is here. It’s just me and you and it is not in your nature to take care of me.

Hi, Pain – 2.10.2023

Hi, Pain –

Are your bags packed? We’re going on an adventure! At first I didn’t know if I was taking this trip because of you or in spite of you. Either way, I had hoped this international escapade was going to be an escape from you for a little bit. Now I know you’ll be with me every step of the way. You’ll be the only one with me. My excitement about my first solo travel experience has given way to the realization that all it means is I won’t have someone to share it with. “Solo” is really just a rebranding of “alone.”

Hi, Pain – 1.23.2023

Hi, Pain –

I’ve been keeping myself busy lately so it’s been easier to push you to the corners of my mind and forget you for a little while. This weekend I visited a place where a lot of memories live and there you were, at the forefront, among the shadows of what my life used to be. I couldn’t ignore you any more. The comforts of home always come with a price.

Hi, Pain – 1.9.2023

Hi Pain –

You were so raucous last night I couldn’t sleep. You followed that up by distracting me with your antics all day long. I wondered why you were being more disruptive that usual today but all I had to do was look at the calendar. Sometimes I can’t believe you are still here. Then sometimes I’m forced to admit to myself it’s because I let you stay.

Hi, Pain – 1.5.2023

Hi, Pain –

New year, same you. You really did rage last week – I guess you wanted to end the shitstorm of a year with a bang. Thanks for that. I know you’re coming in hot for 2023, but can you please go easy on me this January? I need a little bit of a break before you go full tilt again come mid-February.